I want to know

Generation of 20 somethings. Those just becoming, those developing and those leaving. A demographic where so many changes happen in life and so much could determine your future. I just want to know the way we change during these years.. or not change at all.

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A special highlight

"Hello? Cardinal here!"

A special highlight of my day was speaking with the guy who takes the pharmacy's orders for certain wholesale generic brand drugs. What usually is composed of a 5 minute order where lots of numbers get tossed here and there, turned out to be a fullfledged 20 minute conversation on life. So this guy tells me about his life.. i mean not everything but enough for me to know that his 26 year old sounding voice is actually 35 and that he's married with a kid. But he tells me during this conversation how fortunate i am to be graduated now when the economy has decided to take a turn for the worse in this economic travesty. His reasons? Cut backs on school spending. greatly affected the future kids who are middle/high schoolers now. I suppose i thought we were the unfortunate generation, the "nobody can get a job" era, the failure to have a specialization leads to unemployment age, but no... there are kids out there who may be dreaming as big as we did.. but will not even get the opportunity to forge their dreams and culture their desires because a school can't fund certain classes, will not open registration for a semester, or completely slice out certain curriculum. scary thought.

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Re-Welcome

Dear me.

Lots has happened since i've last blogged. The king of Pop died (RIP MJ), an angel fell (RIP FF), i've graduated officially from university, and now i have a nearly 3month old puppy - who is probably big enough to eat my hand off already. I suppose in that time though the self is what is important (in all self-loving ways) and that i, mySELF, have been tested over this period. and that in this search for SELF i've figured out a lot.

So it's been a trying period for me these past two/three weeks yet i'm finally learning things about myself that i thought would never have occurred. it's a beautiful thing i swear.

Moving forward, I've been meaning to finally get a creative outlet and I suppose my blog is the best place to start.

But by having a stolen camera, pressed for time from work, and time spent with my precious Ritzy... where is the time?

Then again, I finally got some prints off my Holga.. i should just ask f'in overpriced Samy's to just load my pictures on a CD-R. F'ers.

ask for my PPFFCC mix. it's pretty damn good.

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3 days..

So the days are winding down and graduation is looming... can i say that i am excited?

No.

Because i've been a graduate for the last 3 months and it's been kinda boring if you ask me. But hey! other than that, i'll be glad to receive a little black book that has no diploma in it until later this summer.

So what AM i excited for?

this...

SsamJiGil - Seoul, South Korea
Photo Courtesy: Dolmang - Flickr

flying away from america for a little bit and scratching that travel itch i seem to get so often.

and i get to see my grandma. love.

Steve Mallory

"You know how people long to be eternal. But they die with every day that passes. When you meet them, they're not what you met last. In any given hour, they kill some part of themselves. They change, they deny, they contradict - and they call it growth. at the end there's nothing left, nothing unreversed or unbetrayed; as if there had never been an entity, only a succession of adjectives fading in and out on an unformed mass. How do they expect a permanence which they have never held for a single moment?"

Typing while mom sleeps

typing secretly while my mother sleeps is so incredibly difficult.


ok.


i'll blog tomorrow instead. this is making me have anxiety. lol

Dance Dance Dance

Love the Kazooozie

Time to smell flowers

Last week i went to the Huntington Library with my parents. While walking the enormous grounds i couldn't get over how beautiful the spring season was calling all the flowers to bloom. I don't know what it is about this year, but i especially stopped to smell the flowers more than any other year. I never recognize this season as being significant. But even walking around the engineering area on campus last quarter around mid march proved to be a breathtaking sight. I guess the flowers are just getting the recognition i had neglected so many years before. wonderful.

Still counting

How much longer must i wait??

Final Finals

Last thursday I experienced the most emotional day of classes ever in my career as a student. It was just that, I was no longer a student at 5pm. I had completed my term as an undergraduate student at UC Irvine and all I could think about was... what is next?? Given such sorrowful situation, I was delighted to find myself with a five dollar bill on the corner of the bridge between the arts and mesa parking. Only to pay my way into a night of bizarre fun at the coveted Dave n Busters.

Damn.

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In any case, this week is marking my last finals ... and in fact i only have one. So i guess it will be my final final. Having completed everything i'm taking this studying at a glacial pace. Which is worrying me because I should be undertaking more at this point with the work i have to complete with Ocean as well. But none of this phases me as I'm only seeing one thing in my future right now... New York City.

I've missed traveling since.. well Arizona, but still... it'll be nice to complete my studies with this trip and really relish in what the city has to offer.