Another chapter

Today i spent the whole date at the Irvine apartment cleaning up whatever we had left at our abode and taking home all the rest of my furniture. I couldn't believe the amount of stuff that just fit inside my dad's sub but what i couldn't believe even more was how that was it. My college career fit inside of two car rides up and down from Irvine to LA. That was it.

My chapter in Irvine has closed.

But honestly, it wasn't that emotional. My attachment has grown thin to the town since my move back to la back in march/april. I realized i never belonged in irvine. It was a means to be in school and my friends made it my home... but the city itself... hardly. I'm just made for the city and LA has welcomed me back. With open arms and a burning mountain.


Setting and Rising.

The way the sun comes down at an earlier time towards the end of august and into september are always really sad reminders to me of how summer is winding down. Somehow driving home from work today through Figueroa in downtown made me think about England and Egham and just the year i had a abroad again. I think one of the most thrilling feelings and also really sad feelings was when the term was ending and summer was beginning and the days in England were getting incredibly longer - marking another end to a journey to the end of a season.

I specifically remember one night where many of us were hanging out at Kingswood and the drivers from the SU had been going back and forth from the parking lot. Me, being slightly hammered, yelled to the driver and asked if i could ride with him for the rest of the night until his shift ended. At around 3am i saw the sun start to change the deep shade of black blue in the sky to a hazy purple, orange, and red. I was completely taken by how early the night was turning into day and the stunning colors in the change. I shared a really sweet moment with that driver too. We talked about music, life in LA compared to England, family, friends, partying, the weather.. all of it. I expressed to him how much i'd miss this place, how i wish i met more people, and how it was unfortunate to make friends with someone so late in the game. He laughed and joked how i was already due back for a visit before i left. And with that the hours passed and students were all dropped off at their homes. The sky had turned into a cloudy blue as he took me for one last spin around the town and Royal Holloway before dropping me back off at block 7. Gave me a hug and wished me luck.

i never got his name or friended him on facebook. - it was something i shared quietly with myself as a good moment between a person and enjoyed it for what it was. A short summer night.


New Projects

So i have two new projects as far as my blogging world has come. I've finally decided to keep this blog as a companion to my personal life and thoughts while others to my somewhat multiple attributes.

So things to look out for?

One is still under development for our time as the age of the 20 - somethings.

One is for food.

see you soon!


Wasting Time

I would like to consider myself an active person.. someone who is on the go and constantly needing to do something with her hands. But today i felt like a vegetable. I suppose driving to the dentist and exploring old town with Chris was attempts to accomplish things... but i came home with the idea that i would rest easy and then study a bit..

one thing leads to another.. i see fresh fruit salad in the refridgerator.. i sit on couch.. click on the telly.

game over.

I sat for HOURS watching and watching and watching.

Cake Boss, True Life MTV I'm addicted to porn, Cake Boss, Diners Drive Ins and Dives, ABDC, Law and Order SVU, Mystery Diagnosis, Training Day, Cake Boss, Gymnastics on NBC...

MY GOODNESS! just too much tv.

I think i really need to set myself a limit from now on about how much tv i'm allowed to watch. Exerting some self-control and when to simply just turn off the TV. And it doesn't stop at TV.. i think i really need to control how much time i spend online on YouTube as well. And honestly... even how i read books. I know reading is a good thing but not when it's already 3am and i think there are 100 pages left i can finish it.. and i end up staying up another hour or so.

exerting self-control.


how do you just know??

So with my mom and dad's anniversary quickly approaching I was curious yet again this year on how it exactly worked between my mom and dad. Just a bit of background information for those who don't know but my parents only knew each other for 2 months before tying the knot. That's like less than a uci quarter of class to learn about a person... Granted I couldn't even learn where the basal ganglia was in the brain in that time.. But here 24 years later they stand to be my living proof that marriage works and love can exist for two people in ways that will never deviate from destiny.

But how?

How is it in less than 2 months my mom knew my dad was the right guy to spend the rest of forever with..

I asked her this exact question in my broken korean. And how did my mom respond?

"He made me feel comfortable. I just knew."

So is this what I'm looking for? This unexplainable reasoning of just knowing when one meets someone?? People may say that times have changed and that people get married for all the wrong reasons.. Well I don't think my mom's reasons were sound but look where they are. Funny how things work out.

C'est la vie.